EGREGORE

The idea that a collection of
Shared thoughts
Can have a psychic reality
Poses a challenge
To rational thought.

All psychic phenomena
Share in this difficulty.
How can we believe in ghosts
Or God without having physically
Experienced them?

Some get Lucky.
Simone Weil made contact
With her God at an early age*.
She could then speak authoritatively
About matters of the spirit.

She was emphatic that
We must empty ourselves of
False divinity, give up being
The center of the world and open
Ourselves to God’s presence.

All I saw as a child
Was a ghost at the window
From my upstairs bedroom.
A workman appeared on a ladder
Painting the window frame.

In 1953, our house was new.
I saw the apparition a few
Years later; perhaps the painter
Died a sudden death, falling while
Intoxicated with paint thinner.

The experience led me to an
Early obsession with ghost stories.
Then to a wider consideration
Of the occult, mostly as limned by
Colin Wilson or Dennis Wheatley.

Now, my inner journey
Is marked by a tenuous
Connection to my lineage
The certainty of impermanence
And the fragility of my soul…

As I continue to
Build an Egregore
With fanciful thoughts
Wrested from my attention
To the Urban Wildland.

*Simone Weil, Waiting for God, 1950.

THE CASE FOR ANGELS

In the Wim Wenders’ movie
Wings of Desire
Angels appear as well dressed
Gentlemen of a certain age.

Not young, on the cusp perhaps
Of middle-age, but not yet
Gone to seed
Spry and kind-hearted.

They infuse those they
Invisibly touch with Hope
For the future and a profound
Thankfulness for the moment.

Wings are a signature accessory
But soon cast aside.
Theirs is a lonely but fulfilling job.
One such aspires to become human.

He meets a fallen angel who has
Happily renounced his angelic identity
And is thus reassured
Of his impending conversion.

Trading eternity for the paltry
Human lifespan he falls in love
And lives happily for what remains
Of his three score years and ten.

Set in a still divided Berlin
Still too, recovering from
The ravages of WWII
It is a deeply affecting film.

The premise is fanciful
But angels have a certain
Credibility that spans millennia
Of human existence.

As brokers who negotiate
Between the sacred and profane
They fulfill a vital role.
Who are we to deny their presence?

  Wings of Desire (1987) has been meticulously
restored in 4K and released by the Criterion
Collection in 2023. It was shown
at The Ojai Playhouse on January 29th. 2026.

IN THE DARK

Light is the delineator
Of shape and hue describing
The material realities that
Configure our world.

Seeing in the night
Requires some time
To become accustomed
To an absence of color and form.

To practice meditation
Is to step into the shadows
That gather on the threshold
Of a fathomless dark.

Here, the shimmering ego
Must be diminished to allow
Our spiritual intelligence
To emerge in the stygian gloom.

To enter this profound
Inner world of negation
Is to renounce any awareness
Of materiality and bright presence.

Shadowy figurations slowly reveal
Themselves in this colorless realm
As our spiritual awareness takes shape
Within the clouds of unknowing.

EMELLE KAYDAY

There was a Picnic, Put-together or Party
In the East End of Ojai on Sunday.
It was a neighborhood get-together
Held almost incidentally on the day
Before Martin Luther King Jr. Day.

Nevertheless, it was a penumbral event:
Darkened by the juxtaposition that much of
The wealth evident in Ojai’s oaken enclaves
Collaterally descended from enslaved labor…
The weekend’s celebrant from slaves.

I spoke with a woman from Mozambique
And vacuously asked her, ‘How’s the surf?’
The country was long an entrepôt for slaves
When it was colonized by the Portuguese
Who maintained their hegemony for 470 years.

After a decade of the Mozambican Civil War
The Marxist FREMILO party rose to power
And established Independence in June, 1975. 
In a matter of days she said, 300,000 colonials
Most of Portuguese descent, fled the country.

The white man arrived in N.E. America
In 1620, and has since colonized the territory
Now known as the United States. In one year
The U.S. has deported 500,000 ‘illegals’
Many have some plausible claim to indigeneity. 

I still have a dream. I have a dream that one day 
This nation will rise up, and live out the true meaning
Of its creed, ‘that all men are created equal’…
I will not be satisfied until justice rolls down
Like waters and righteousness like a mighty stream.

MLK, 1963

OF POWDERED BONE AND CLAY

The light in Celtic Consciousness 
Is a penumbral light - the shadowed
Light of the soul, glimpsed only
In rents within its veiled darkness:
It is a glow that suffuses the land. 

The shape of a Landscape
Is an ancient form of consciousness.
The mountains sit in contemplation
While it’s drainages feed the streams 
That run toward their oceanic destiny.

Below the surface, the Earth lives
In an Eternal night, while we trammel
The fragile skein of its verdant skin
Bending it to our will, in bouts
Of egoic subjugation and ruination. 

Our presence is suffused with Landscape.
As individuals, we are possessed by it.
We belong to the Earth
For we are made of its clay and fired
In the imagination of the Earth’s soul.

When we belong to a place we become
Enfolded within that landscape’s soul.
Seated in stillness, like the mountains
Our spirit is revivified, connected again
To its terrestrial  beginnings.

Like Awen Ditty this piece was inspired by
John O’Donohue’s
Anam Cara: A Book of Celtic Wisdom.

COSMIC INTERTIDAL ZONE

‘Imaginal’ is that noetic knowledge
That springs directly from the heart. 
It’s what St. Paul meant by Faith.
Faith is the substance of things hoped for…
The evidence of things not seen.

Cynthia Bourgeault* limns it as
The luminous perception of the 
Invisible golden thread. 
For her, the Imaginal is a confluence:
A cosmic intertidal zone. 

She references our old mate
Valentin Tomberg, the esotericist
For whom in a quantum world
Matter is energy - a condensed psychic
Force - which in turn becomes ‘spirit’. 

This Spirit is manifested by Love
Prayer and Attention: emanating 
From within the Imaginal World
Like a perfume or a tincture
It is subtle, even subliminal, yet Angelic.

*Cynthia Bourgeault, Eye of the Heart,
A Spiritual Journey into the Imaginal Realm

AWEN DITTY

A sacrament is a visible sign 
Of invisible Grace.
It exists in a world where
The Divine has no face.

But the unseen is unfurled
And is expressed best
In the prosaic manifestations 
Of a Reality at rest…

In our cultural acts of creation
Where the anxious and extreme
In film, novels, and the like
Are buried in a living dream.

Dazzled by this reflexive media
The devil is interred, I like to think
And the beneficence of the Holy
Becomes meat and drink:

Where the soul is revealed 
In the folds of the forbidden
Deep within the shimmering arts
All rendered in the hidden. 

It is the experience of such work
That nurtures our wizened soul. 
We remove the pallid and the putrid
And we again are made part whole.

PROSPECT PARK

There was a high wind in the park last night:
Sundered tree limbs lay scattered along the path
Hearing wind still whistling through the tree tops 
I watched as their filigree shimmered at first light.

From the brownstone to the eponymous park
Then, passed by spandexed runners left and right
All having left our beds long before sun’s pale rise
We moved counter-clockwise in the vanishing dark.

Past other early risers - their dogs frolicking in snow
Flocks of birds flitting around a part-frozen lake
Neo-classical park buildings looming in the mist
Onwards to Grand Army Plaza in the dawn's glow.

We emerge from this skeletal, sylvan spread
(Scene of the Battle of Brooklyn in 1776)
To confront the urbanity of the Plaza
And a vast shrine* to a more recent war’s dead.

Its Triumphal Arch affronts the senses:
Bombastic statuary saluting the Union’s valor
Atop an arch of fine-hewn stone that stands
Athwart these precious woodland experiences.

* The Soldiers' and Sailors' Memorial Arch
was built between 1889-1892 to honor Union
soldiers and sailors who died in the Civil War.

AWAITING A STORM

This Morning…

I must go down to the seas again
To the lonely sea and the sky…
And a grey mist in the sea’s face
And a grey dawn breaking.*

As an atmospheric river sags to the south
The morning broke cold, damp and drizzly.
Me, shivering as I rode my bike
To a lonely beach north of the estuary.

Through empty riverine parks
Past windowless industrial buildings
Through Ventura’s oil fields, littered 
With tanks, pipes and pump jacks, I rode:

Then, ghost trees with whitened trunks
‘Midst flotsam and homeless encampments;
Off-shore wind whipped waves; the lagoon
Festooned with Egrets, Herons and gulls.

This Evening… 

A Wild sky to the West
Hangs over seven misty mountains
As the sun sinks into one dead ocean
And it’s a hard rain’s a-gonna fall.**

*John Masefield
**Bob Dylan

GOD ONLY KNOWS

Right off the bat
Thomas Merton writes
In his Asian Journal
‘Why do we travel?’

His journal consists
Of thoughts, quotes and
Observations as he flees
From West to East.

After twenty-seven years
Immured in a Trappist
Monastery in Kentucky
He is permitted to leave for Asia.

Already steeped in
Buddhist spirituality
He is intent on visiting
The Dalai Lama in Dharamsala

But he finds a greater kinship
With Sonam Kazia
A Tibetan Magician
Who vouchsafes…

“The Highest of Vows is made
When there is no longer anything
To be accomplished
Nothing is vowed: No one vows it”.

Merton sought an alignment of
The Buddhist notion of Sunyata
With the Christian Kenotic
Tradition of self-emptying.

He understood
That it was the Tibetan Magician
Who could lead him further into
This realm of Christian mysticism…

In Bangkok, as he journeys on
From the Subcontinent
He is electrocuted in a hotel room
While preparing to hold a Mass.

As an eloquent and esteemed
Opponent of the Vietnam War
Many in the State Department
Considered him a threat.

It is Bangkok in 1968: the CIA
As ubiquitous as Holy men in Tibet.
Each operative a rogue
Operation waiting to happen.

Is he confronted with
A very Western tradition:
Assassination
As political sacrament?

Only God Knows.

MERE ANARCHY*

I have some inkling
Of the composition
Of the genetic swamp
From which I arose.

I knew both my parents well.
My maternal grandfather
Was briefly present while
Both grandmothers long survived.

My father’s father died
In the mid 1920’s
As my father entered his teens.
His maiden aunts substituted…

All were Londoners by birth.
None of them died there
Ending lives ruptured
By World War II.

My parents were evacuated
To darkest West Surrey
Safely away from the bombs
And the rockets of the Blitz.

And it was there
I was born a few years later
Close to an old wool town
In the middle of the County.

The epigenetic imprint of this
Dislocation from London
Is unknowable, but I suspect it led
Me to the diasporic city of L.A.

And then to the foothills
Of the Santa Ynez mountains
Sixteen years ago, and the rewilding
Of old pasture lands in Upper Ojai.

The center cannot hold
In a decrepit Empire:
I was fated to be flung, ever further
Into its widening gyre.

 *Leaning lightly on W.B. Yates’
The Second Coming

YOUNG & OLD

I first saw a mountain lion
As it loped across my path
While I was running
On holiday in the Berkshires
Thirty years ago…

Then, just this year
I saw a second:
A young Apollo, golden-haired
Stands (on the edge of our driveway)
Dreaming on the verge of strife…*

Inside that young golden-haired lion
As Shel Silverstein mused
There’s an old man sleepin’
Dreamin’ waitin’ for his chance…
Wantin’ to show you a slower dance.

Upon a time, like two weeks ago
I saw a third mountain lion
Fully mature, grizzled even
Insouciant in its confident presence
Standing just beyond our pool…

On the gently rising meadow
Fixed in place (our place)
Looking through the sliding doors
Of the kitchen
As we finished breakfast.

Practiced in that slower dance
It then turned away
With studied nonchalance
And padded up the slope
Brushing by the Toyon bush.

*Frances Cornford, On Rupert Brooke.

DATURA PATCH

There are entheogens in datura
That will dry your throat 
And make you mad
But also show you the Gods…

‘Every object has a hinterland
Only revealed by consciousness
When every thing becomes relational…
Cleaving to its symbolic tendencies.' *

Datura is a sacred plant
Now much maligned:
Mostly sequestered in roadsides
Ditches and waste lands.

There is a wild datura patch 
Which lays between the oak grove
And an oil-pipe boundary gate
Where it is lovingly tended.

Even now, after heavy rains
There remain a couple of
Bedraggled trumpet blossoms
Nestled white beneath grey leaves.

Its hinterland extends far beyond
History to the aboriginal beginnings
Of these once untrammeled lands
Where it enriched the Vision Quest.

Juice from its pounded root
Was drunk by Chumash boys
At puberty to elicit dreams
Which revealed their spirit helper.

Its potency remains within
My consciousness as a vivid
Source of connection to a past
Where people and plants are conjoined…

In symbiotic relationships
With all that is.
Empowered by their vegetal helpers
Spirit walkers then navigated this Arcadia.

*Being a Human, Charles Foster, 2021

LURCH & STUMBLE

Circles scribed on the pavement
Marking trails where spirits wander
Leaving walkers left to wonder
‘Long the shores of Wild Vancouver…

At Cultures dead and dying
In this greatest coastal City
Full o’hidden shame and pity
‘Long the shores of Wild Vancouver. 

Making slight accommodation
These circles mark the tragic history
Of lands still wrapped in mystery
‘Long the shores of Wild Vancouver. 

Enjoy the walk, ignore the whispers 
Never mind the dead and dying
Amidst spirits quivering and a’crying
‘Long the shores of Wild Vancouver. 

Anthropologists commemorate
What’s long gone, done and dusted 
Tribes and tribelets all broke and busted
‘Long the shores of Wild Vancouver. 

But there will come a time
As our buildings rot and crumble
We walkers too will lurch and stumble
‘Long the shores of Wild Vancouver. 

THE ARCHAEOLOGY OF DREAMS

The Carrizo Plain
Is the beating heart
Of pre-contact California
Pulsing through a giant rift

Severing the Plain from
The embroaching mountains
Of the Temblor Range
That rise to the West.

It is a landscape arisen
From the lithosphere
In the tortuous writhings
Of its plate tectonics.

And in this rift flows
The supernatural power
Manifested to the Chumash
In psychic revelations…

Hard won in Vision Quests.
Sequestered in the extravagant
Lithic morphology of this place:
An archaeology of dreams.

WORM ALERT

This morning, while pumping gas
I saw a sticker on a Honda that read
Stand for the Flag, Kneel for the Cross
From its antenna hung stars and stripes.

Origin stories are the armature
Upon which humanity hangs
Its hopes and dreams
For this world and the next.

There I was reading the text
Of the now and future America
In which fundamentalist belief
In Christianity and America are conjoined.

Each origin story is as unlikely as the next
But all reflect a primal desire
For the blessings of a supreme being
And an assured place in community.

The Honda’s message can stand
Alongside the fanciful imaginings
Of Scientology’s L. Ron Hubbard
And of the Mormon’s Joseph Smith

Of the green Goddess Gaia
And other Earth wisdoms
Twined around an Axis Mundi
Set betwixt the Celestial Poles.

So too we drape the armatures
Forged by the Abrahamic traditions
Those of Buddhism, Hinduism
And ancient indigenous faiths.

But an evil worm has appeared
Birthed in this, our Modern Age
Squirming and wriggling as an amalgam
Of Fascism, Zionism and Neoliberalism…

Where plenary power subverts
Apartheid Fundamentalism kills
And the Markets’ demiurge feasts
As it Tunnels through Society’s flesh.

THE FLIGHT OF ANGELS

Thomas Aquinas calls it
 The Ministry of the Angels:
The mission of winged creatures
To deliver Divine Enlightenment
To earth’s sentient beings…As bees 
Carry pollen from flower to flower.

But the banishment of Angels 
Has been a requirement of Modernity
Over five centuries or more…
Now the condition of the planet
Demands their reinstatement
For it is they that can Awaken Us. 

Einstein’s existential question:
‘Is the Universe Friendly or not?’’
Is answered by Aquinas’ notion
That Angels embody love -
It is their love that renders it
A place of benign plenitude.

Called upon at times
Of deep reflection and silence
Midst the tumult of endogenous noise
They announce a divine silence:
It is in such moments of Quietude 
That these Spirits may heal us…

WALK, DON'T RUN

I sleep, I dream and awaken:
After a cup of Tea
I begin a walk over the Hills
Through rocks, trees and scrub
In the tentative light of dawn.

There’s a place on my walk
Where it is necessary to jump
Over a seasonal creek;
Dry now, but its crevice
Prepared for Winter’s rains. 

This forms a gap
In the continuity of the walk
A necessary pause
To prepare for the action
Of leaping from rock to bank.

This used to be my run
Now downgraded to a walk
But the frisson of the jump
Remains the same.
Always the risk of a fall.

A mad scramble out of the ditch
Fighting the gravitational pull
Of its flow line, grasping for the
Further bank: this is the scenario
That runs through my mind.

It is a necessary hazard.
How else to make the traverse
Over to the steep and rutted
Track that takes me down
To the valley floor…and home?

FORMLESS AWARENESS GOOD, CONSCIOUSNESS BAD

The psyche is synonymous
With the duality of Consciousness: 
Subject and Object.
But Formless Awareness is 
Who we really are.

The distinction between
Consciousness and Formless Awareness
Is simply that of Duality and Non-Duality. 
Consciousness Is focused on ‘things’
The materialism of our false identity. 

The identity theft of the psyche
Has been going on for so long
We don’t recognize ourselves.*
Thoughts and emotions steal our 
Awareness by day, in dreams by night. 

The psyche identifies with forms
That arise in awareness
Of the thoughts and things of this world. 
Consciousness dissolves into wisdom
When we descend into dreamless sleep.

The true nature of mind is
Utterly bright and utterly vivid.
The Real Self is selfless and formless. 
Buddhists aspire to this luminosity
Of the Irreducible Self.  

Buddhism teaches that if you realize
The formless nature of your Being
You will transcend Death.
By relinquishing the false identity 
Of the psyche, Death brings Immortality. 

*Dream Yoga, Andrew Holecek, 2016.

MYSTICAL MECHANICS

The consequences of Quantum Mechanics
Were unacceptable to many physicists
Including Albert Einstein.
Experiments were devised to demonstrate
Their ineluctable absurdity.

Nils Bohr used to say that
The significance of QM
Always made him dizzy.*
Wrenched from the balm of common sense
Cast adrift from the calm of classic determinism.

If randomness, complexity and irreversibility
Prevail in the sub-atomic world, the impossibility
Of a single divine point of view
Surveying the whole of reality
Is made ever more manifest.

When we sunder the connection
Of the world to its description
We enter the realm of Quantum Mysticism:
Where the sensations of our body
And of our minds are taken to be illusory;

Where the world is a dream
And our dreams are the world;
Where the phantasms of aging, sickness and death
Are renounced in the pursuit of a Reality
That transcends the physics of the quotidian.

*Order out of Chaos, 1984, Ilya Prigogine